“Silver Linings”

The harder days 

Make me pray harder for 

Sunshine in my soul

Conscious and aware

That I won’t be here for long

But now feels like forever

Don’t know if it will get better

But I pray 

For brighter days and forgiveness

For not knowing the right way 

Broken compass

Don’t know how to navigate these things 

Pray for you more than I pray for myself 

And maybe that’s too selfless 

Since I’ll never know if you do the same 

All alone and feel so helpless

Think I’m aware

But my awareness is shattered 

From the moment you told me 

My story doesn’t matter 

So instead of being The Mad Hatter

I pray

For brighter days in my soul

Because there will always be rain 

Teaching myself how to weather the storm 

Not be so ashamed 

So I look to the stars 

Knowing one day this

Will be my new home 

Getting comfortable up there 

For when the storm comes on