“Changing the Narrative”

Am I selfish for worrying about my problems?

Just because everyone got em?

While I’m facing mine, you’re facing yours

But if you take a glimpse and see me drowning 

Would you pull me to shore? 

Or it don’t really matter because 

Those problems aren’t yours? 

If you call me your friend 

And you hear people talk about me

Would you defend my character to them? 

Or muzzle your mouth to save yourself

Because our bond is too embarrassing to be known by anyone else

If you say you love me to my face 

But when your homies make an I’ll comment

Now in your mouth there’s this bad taste

Would you let love roll off your tongue then?

Or are opinions of others a roadblock 

To expressing how love locked you truly are

Or now it means nothing because you never showed me

All of your scars

When you’re around me I see a shining star

Even when you’re not in my presence 

And your name rings bells

Love and adoration for you is the first thing I yell

But behind closed doors my name is something you don’t defend 

Foe behind my back yet you still call me friend 

But I don’t judge you 

Because this used to be me 

Seeing everyone’s problems 

Except for when I look in the mirror

Because I’m All That in publics eye

But deep inside I’m aching

Judging myself more than anyone else because I’m breaking 

So I fake it til I make it 

Cuz I know I have flaws too

But just because I have them 

I should flaunt them too you?

Because that makes me human 

And hiding them generates hurt

But now that everyone knows them 

Embracing them hurts you worse 

Cuz how can she walk around with so much confidence

A smile on her face and no one’s knocking it 

Until she met me and I turned it all around 

Read you a list of all your flaws 

Now I’m the one looking down 

Because you don’t know your worth 

And I know your heart is aching

So I take advantage of your soft shell 

And tell everyone else you’re faking 

Because they trust my word more

So you’re word is mistaken 

For an insecure girl who’s never gonna make it