Gracefully Broken

Life changing drastically 

And looking in the past, it seems

the trauma that’s attached to me

Has turned me to the “Bag Lady” I never meant to be

Holding on to the image of me others molded 

Not able to keep up so I am scolding

Myself continuously 

Tracking my progress comparing it to everyone around me

Wondering what I’m doing wrong because nothing seems to be going right

Beating myself up crying every night 

Holding on to every bit of fight 

Left in me, that’s all that’s left in me

Attempting everything in my power to bring back that light 

That used to shine so bright 

No matter the ideas of others, oh

No matter the plight 

Instead of holding my mirror next to theirs 

Never getting a reflection that’s clear

A need to change direction 

Reflect my mirror on what I’m facing 

Self doubt, fears, disappointment, heartbreak, displacing 

Slowly chipping away at the problems I put in my way

That keep me from reaching my dreams

Blaming everyone else instead of the one that needs to be 

And no, this is not a negative thing

Finally realizing that I’m the one to blame

Now able to move forward with grace to make a change 

So now she walks with her head held high 

Letting the words of hate and shame from others fly by

Because she realizes they aren’t me

What’s meant for them ain’t meant for me 

My blessings will never be their blessings 

Because this is my life and my lessons 

Take advantage of the challenges God has placed on my path

Cuz I know the down times will never last 

Cuz the sun will shine again 

Her smile will return from a grin

And with the support of her loved ones 

With the strength of God within 

Strutting Gracefully in her brokenness 

Is where her healing begins 

“I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I that live, but Christ liveth in me: and that life which I now live in the flesh I live in faith, the faith which is in the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself up for me.”

Galatians 2:20 ASV