Conditioned Prescription

Here I go 

to swallow 

these antidepressants 

as I sit in the incandescent glow

of the TV

I assess then reassess

necessary evil to suppress it

stare at the pills with resentment 

the treatment

is bittersweet

and I worry about trading being present

with being happy

I hate you depression

and then again

you're all I know

been by my side since adolescence 

what an investment 

you've made in me

I'd be honored under a different circumstance