RECLAMATION

As I try to quiet my mind 

And I look back in time 

I can see how all along I was in denial

Afraid to be me confidently 

In fear of what everyone says about me 

But everyone got an opinion 

About what you should be doing

How you should be moving 

But they don’t know what you’ve been through 

They weren’t there all the nights you had to cry yourself to sleep 

Knowing in your heart this isn’t how things should be

I am capable of so many things 

No longer stress over how people view me

“Bitch you’ll never be able to do me how I do me…

A bitch would fold cuz she can’t hold all this weight on my shoulders 

And as I get older my force gets colder 

But my heart stays warm

Because I do want love 

Have so much to give 

But tired of pouring love into motherfuckahs that’s just going to disappear 

Break my heart and leave me standing here 

Then laugh behind my back like it never meant shit 

Can now say I learned my lesson 

Be afraid to be myself from the beginning 

And leave them where they are if they can’t accept this blessing

If they can’t love all of me during my lows

Then they can’t be here when blessings start pouring in 

Love to treat me like I’m nothing 

But always need something 

I have nothing to bring to the table 

But you are still sitting here 

So imma just remove myself 

No longer need to be here 

I can now admit my wrongs 

Because that’s what life is all along 

Learning and growing 

Through heartbreak and heartache 

Mistake after mistake